Last week I got to spend half a day in a phonics/reading workshop with Ellie in school. I loved it. It was quite simply lovely to spend quality, dedicated time with my girl. It reminded me how much I enjoy just focusing on Ellie and sadly, it reminded me how often I don’t do it. I simply cannot count the number of times I’ve heard myself reply to Ellie’s requests to play with her by saying ‘in a minute Ellie’, then still find myself doing something else a considerable time later.
The thing is that there’s a battle that goes on in my head. On the one hand my head is saying ‘you can’t play, you’ve got to do x, y and z’ and on the other hand my head is saying ‘you don’t play with Ellie often enough – you’re a bad mother’.