It's a new thing for me.
I'm faking it as a parent. Okay, so in a way I'm done it before. Pretended I was a real Mum after Angel was born, when I hadn't a clue. Trying to be a special needs parent after Smiley was born and floundering. Then thinking I was an autism parent, and doing it all wrong.
I'm trying to change things now. I'm trying to fake it as the autism parent that I want to be. I'm not feeling it you see. But I'm stuck. I've no choice. Scrub that, of course I have choices, but most of them don't look very positive. I'd be worried about the outcomes for all of us.